Every day I strive to rest in peace in the midst of the wonder and occasional chaos that life has now become.
Life is so different being a full time working momma. Yes, I am official. I am a permanent employee worker-bee. Such a decision wasn't made easily, but has had its own set of blessings.
For starters, we have benefits. Hallelujah! Two weeks before benefits kicked in, however, we had horrible sickies wipe through the house and led us to 3 Dr. / Urgent care visits, lots of medication, and lots of out of pocket costs. I made sure to know the exact day I was eligible, and did not miss the deadline!
Another blessing is our childcare. While I was working as a temp, my hubby coordinated childcare on a daily basis, based on his own schedule and that of wonderful friends / church members. I was overwhelmed by the wonderful people that helped us during those few months. I also recognized the kids' need for stability.
Enter Danielle. Danielle grew up with my "sis" Jessica and her brother Jerrod. Danielle's mom and Jessica's mom have a similar relationship to mine with Jess. We offered a live-in nanny position to Danielle (the guest room suite is hers), and she accepted! We now are thrilled to have a stable and more than competent nanny (who is also a licensed massage therapist).
I've had a hard time adjusting to limitations. I despise limitations. I just can't do everything. I despise that. I still have my garden, keep a (somewhat) clean house, cook and bake, but I just do it all less. So much less. I don't have the luxury of much downtime, which means that my blogging and sourdough baking have taken a hit. However, I do recognize that this is (hopefully) a temporary situation, and keep my eyes focused on having peace in the midst of all this.
Every day at work I take a walk, at least once a day. I walk in quiet, and seek peace. I leave distractions in the office. I redirect my focus. And you know something? In this quiet, I am inspired.
And so, I want to start blogging those little inspirational tidbits. Sometimes they are in depth, other times not so much, but I miss writing and sharing these morsels does wonders for my soul. I hope it blesses yours as well.