I'm having a "day". The seeming monotony of being a SAHM / Full-time homemaker is making me bonkers. Perhaps it is the fact that I've been essentially home for a week without going out due to colds, weather, etc. It just seems as though the never-ending dishes await my attention. The never-ending laundry needs to be folded. The never clean house needs to be tidied. And once again, breakfast needs to be prepared. Every day. Every. Day. Do you ever feel this way?
Perhaps this silly feeling of discontent was prompted by the memories of my full-time job as a worker-bee in the corporate world. The security and schedule that never varied much from 8-5 M-F was nice. The paycheck never hurt. The words of affirmation were fun. I rather enjoyed being given a project to complete, and then obliterating expectations with my precision. I had independence, the office talk of politics, current events, everything under the sun. (As compared to the talk of diapers, bodily functions and never did I ever say "Would you please keep your finger out of your nose!" to any of my co-workers.)
I think what I really miss is independence. I miss my identity as a corporate gal a bit, which surprises me. I love being a SAHM for so many reasons, but every now and then I have this longing for the days where the messiest part of the day was dealing with office politics and not the tremendous messes that two little boys can make simultaneously. It was nice to feel appreciated, to get things completed, and then to receive a nice paycheck for my hard work.
When it comes down to it, I am quite content being a mommy and wife. I would not trade this time for the world. I know my independence will return again. I know that I will have a clean house again, one day, and that I will miss the messy fingerprints on everything and the "I love you momma" times. I just have these moments from time to time. Anyone else relate?